It hurts that I think about you every night. I wish I could take back my promise & abandon you but I could never. You once compared me to everyone else but noone has ever stayed by your side as I have. Even with everything we’ve been through I still remain here. I’m pretty sure some see it as pathetic but I see it as keeping a promise. I wish I could say I hate you. I think half the time I’m thinking about you its me wishing I could hate you & cut you off. I love you too much to do that. I’m not saying I’m still in love with you not at all if I was I surely wouldn’t tell you we see where that got us. I hope your life is going great. I hope she makes you extremely happy. I wish I could tell all of this to you but I can’t. I’m comfy writing this because there is no way you’ll ever read this. Its my inner feelings that I can’t actually share with you. I use my blog to write out my feelings I guess. sigh I’ll never have the courage to tell any of this to you. Oh how I wishh I could hate you like you hate her :/